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The End Of The Prologue and The Beginning Of A New Chapter
New Chapter: ETA – 26 days
It has been ages since I last blogged anything in this page. How have everyone been doing?
At the moment, there have been lots happening to me. Work has been as usual… work and crazy datelines. For the past few weeks it had been quite relaxing but I think it is going to pick up again soon. Exams (yes for those don’t know… I’m STILL taking exams. How sad is that?) was horrid. Nothing short of a miracle is going to save me this time. Only God can save me. HELP ME!!!
Otherwise, that’s not so much the reason why I decided to blog this down today. I have been holding this off for a while now so I might as well do it. So many times I wanted to blog but just got lazy. Haha!
In every person’s life, there are always phases. No, this is not really a direct reference to the magazine I used to write for (named Phases). We have many different phases. Different people would have different ways to measure each phase. To some ladies, they consider one period cycle as a single phase (avoids all the tomatoes being thrown at me), for some it’s after certain events, for others, it’s when something overtly major happens that warrants the turn of a new phase. I’m the last one.
I’m 25 this year and it’s interesting to note that only now I’m ending my prologue and starting a new chapter. This must have been the longest prologue ever!! Well… I never really thought about it really. I guess, what got me to say think about this is because the new phase I’m entering is so new and different compared to what I’ve been doing for the past 10 years. It has probably got to be the biggest change in my life I suppose.
So far, a fairly limited number of people know what is happening (And those who know, DO NOT mention it here until the ETA is over!). Many others… I chose to keep in suspense. Some are just asking non-stop about what I’m going to do. From the very odd to absurd had been suggested… The ideas people come up with. LOL!
If you want to know what’s happening, keep tuned. You’ll know eventually.
You are a free spirit, and you resent anyone who tries to fence you in. You are unpredictable, adventurous, and always a little surprising. You may miss out by not settling down, but you're too busy having fun to care.
You are well rounded, with a complete perspective on life. You are solid and dependable. You are loyal, and people can count on you. At times, you can be a bit too serious. You tend to put too much pressure on yourself.
You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people. You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts. You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals.
You are deeply philosophical and thoughtful. You tend to analyze every aspect of your life. You are intuitive, brilliant, and quite introverted. You value your time alone. Often times, you are grumpy with other people. You don't appreciate them trying to interfere in your affairs.
You are fair, honest, and logical. You are a natural leader, and people respect you. You never give up, and you will succeed... even if it takes you a hundred tries. You are rational enough to see every part of a problem. You are great at giving other people advice.
You are truly an original person. You have amazing ideas, and the power to carry them out. Success comes rather easily for you... especially in business and academia. Some people find you to be selfish and a bit overbearing. You're a strong person.
You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone. You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together. At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together.
Oh man... I never thought I would believe it but I'm actually lovestruck! Or at least... that's the closest word that I could actually describe it. Then again... WOW! 2 weeks since my last posting! What a record after a 6 month hiatus! Haha...
Anyways, I had been going through some of my friend's photos and this one guy apparently caught my attention. Well for one, from what I gathered, he had migrated to the US and is now married! Just very recently. Well... this year has seen many weddings from friends and my Campus pastor. But apparently, this particular person caught my attention. I don't know why... but apparently as I looked through his wedding photos and how they're both happy, something in me snapped, like something just struck a cord in me.
I find myself having a longing for Mrs. Yoong to come my way...
Damn...
I guess this is how Kelvin Lim feels whenever he longs for Mrs. Lim...
I just could not believe it. To think about it, I have developed a liking for certain sappy love songs (well... not that they're not nice but it's not that I would chase after those songs before). For example, songs like "Teardrops On My Guitar" somehow truly appeals to me and brings up feelings in a way. Is this what it means to be SAGD? Single, available and getting desperate? Then again, for the year, I've been looking out for possible candidates but as I was talking to God yesterday, I just told Him that I don't want to get into a relationship out of desperation as I know that it would not bode well for me or her at all!!
ARRGHH!! I am seriously hopeless when it comes to things like these... How is it possible to have a longing for someone I don't even know? In the end, it's about waiting on the Lord. As I was talking to God, I made it clear with Him that I would wait on Him as I want to find a woman of God that I could love for who she is despite all of her bad habits, weaknesses and irritants, just as I would like her to love me despite all of that. But waiting can be misinterpreted in many ways... like does waiting means you do absolutely nothing or does waiting means you actively look for it and let God bring one to you?? That was the confusing part...
In the end, it was decided to just do nothing... to go through life and work on myself, my life, my ministry and all. Do the best that I can in everything that I do. As time goes, I believe that God will bring someone into my life (if she is not already) and develop a relationship that no one will ever break. Until that time, the Lord would work on me to be the best man for her, just as He is working on her to be the best woman for me. =D
Well... it has been about ten months now since my last silence. I actually wanted to be silent a little while longer at this point of time because of my impending CPA examinations coming up. I wanted my next entry to actually document down my modeling steps which I've taken up more seriously during the year. However, the article linked above kinda forced my hand into needing to put down my thoughts quickly.
Our nation is heading into chaos not because the general population or opposition or Hindraf (who just got banned) are inciting anything but instead our current UMNO government is continuously inciting hate and "divide and conquer" tactics among the races. As I've mentioned many times in this blog, real race relations among the normal people, though not as strong as it used to be, still remains cordial and friendly. No real problem exists. Only the government continuously fan this flame for their own survival and goals.
Through this this article, it seems that thee government (read "UMNO") has set a new low in their war for survival no matter the cost, even if it means burning the whole entire nation as the ultimate act of spite. "If we can't have it, no one can". This time, they are indirectly telling their readers to kill of YB Teressa Kok (although it's not directly mentioned but it's reasonable to assume that the article's YB Josephine is a large reference to her).
Yes, they can argue that the article is purely a literature piece and is just pure imagination. Who are they trying to fool? Everyone who are up to date with the current political scenario with a brain can draw the conclusion that UMNO (who owns Utusan Melayu btw) are implicitly saying there is no place for racial harmony under the sun as it 'ruffles feathers' and threatens UMNO's position of race polarization and hate. It's easy enough to draw to a conclusion that UMNO is trying to incite certain group(s)/individuals to kill a beloved MP. These people should be locked up for inciting hate, calling for murder and whatever else that can be slapped on them.
Obviously this would never happen since the police, judiciary, etc... are all under the control of UMNO. What independence?
We can only pray that Malaysia would not be ruled by hateful leaders who are hellbent on being kept in control, even if it means the whole nation can burn as long as they are in power... All Malaysians irregardless of race need to boot these jokers out and to kingdom come.
It has been… how long? Two months? Yeah… two months since I
last blogged and I know there had been really lots I have always wanted to
write about but I’ve just been way too lazy so far.
A little update on me, as the title suggests, I’ll be off to
Cambodia
today. Flight is at 3pm and things are really gonna get nasty, if preliminary
looks have anything to go by. I have only 2 days to complete an entire audit…
looking by which we are really cutting it close. At least this time round,
unlike the usual arrangements, I’ll be going with another guy who was there for
stock-take before.
Man… getting everything prepared in such a short period of
time was really a drag, irritating and seriously hectic. My passport was 2
years expired was one. Having to hear my father lecture me about passports to
traveling to everything under the sun was enough to sap my soul out like one of
those vampire movies. All in all… I’m as ready as I’ll ever be. I really just
wonder if I’ll have enough time to relax and look around instead of just being
holed up working all day long.
In other news, for some who didn’t know, on my way to church
2 weeks ago, my tire burst on the federal highway. Man… was it irritating. I was
late for church just because of the tire burst. Good thing it was near the
Subang Jaya exit. That way, 2 church members noticed and lent a hand. What a
way for church members bonding!! HAHA!
Good news during the week in the national sphere… THE LINGAM
TAPE IS REAL! Now it seems that all the defenses are being propped up by our
ex-premier… talk about sore loser. Whether he’s right or wrong, I just pray
that the trial will be true and fair with transparency. Better yet, I hope that
a trial would take place in the first place instead of it being swept under the
carpet like the royal inquiry on the police and what not.
Now more and more, aggravated by our ex-premier, he’s
trumping up racial sentiments again with his ‘ketuanan melayu’ propaganda all
over again. Come on… can we all not live together equally and in harmony? Why
must there be a second grade citizen class known as the non-Muslims to exist?
We are Malaysians!! That’s all that matters! All this race politics MUST STOP
if this country is to progress!
One politician went as far as saying that ‘ketuanan melayu’
is nothing to do with Malay supremacy or lordship over the non-Malays but about
Malays being successful in every field. One letter I read in Malaysiakini said
something which is so very true. If a Chinese or Indian were to say: “Ketuanan
Cina” or “Ketuanan India”,
would it be taken as just Chinese and Indians being successful in every field?
Or will our Malay politicians take it as Chinese/Indian lordship? If it’s the
former, then we should all started declaring Ketuanan Cina and Ketuanan India! KETUANAN
RAKYAT! But we all know the likes of UMNO and their goons. They will decry the
whole thing and go about with talks on not questioning the social contract and
Malay rights. HAH! Our Malay politicians are causing divisions among the races
for their own twisted benefits again…
Oh… during the week, I just brought a brother to Christ!
WOOHOO!!! Only problem is… he’s like several thousand miles away in Europe and I have absolutely NO idea how to guide him on
this journey from so far away, especially since the first few weeks are going
to be the most crucial. We also know how churches in Europe
are… for one, most churches there are more of a historical landmark that a real
church. Next, the kind of churches there is something I don’t know.
Furthermore, at present, he’s not too keen on the journey
with Christ yet… At this point of time, he just wants Him to be with Him all
the way throughout his life, during the good and hard times. A certain affinity
and guilt towards his sin is also growing, which is good. But to get him to a
church with the fellowship and a bible is really going to be a problem. My best
communication with him would be the E-mail, if I don’t see him on MSN. Anybody
have any ideas which websites I could let him read to help him get started on his
journey with Christ? It’s going to be really hard to guide someone so far away…
Any help would be much appreciated.
Other than communicating whenever I could, all I can do is
pray and let Him work in Him. Hopefully he’ll grow to be someone strong in Him.
I’ll be off to Cambodia soon… God bless ya’all!
Pray for me and you all have a great week!
